Only Jesus.

Sometimes I feel kind of lost.  Like everyone around me is flying past me and my feet are stuck to the ground.   You can be in a room full of people who seem like they have it all together, but you still feel so alone.  Like no one understands you or is on the same page as you are.
Today I woke up in a great mood and got so much done before I left for church.  Between the time I left church and the time I got home, discouragement started setting in.  I started to feel that lost feeling again.

It really is something special when God places people along your path that share the same passions and dreams as you do.  I've learned that even the greatest people in your life can't complete you.  They cannot fill voids or carry you through every obstacle.  Only Jesus.  We humans are broken, scarred and imperfect.  To expect another person to fulfill every hope we have is only going to end in disappointment.  I catch myself putting my worth into how people treat me and see me.  So unhealthy.

I love spending time with my friends and family, but I also am learning to cherish the alone time I have.  It's precious.  It's hard coming off of fun weekends or nights with my friends, but when I slow down and come back to just Jesus, peace overwhelms me.
I used to claim my identity in people and earthly things instead of Christ.  I'd find things I like about certain people and try to become a different person.
It has been in the loneliness and the quiet stillness with Jesus that I have completely transformed into a person I never even knew I could be.  The crazy thing is that I'm just 21.  I still have my whole life to learn more and more.
Hold on dearly to the people who pour the love of Christ into you and uplift you, but remember it's not their doing, it's Jesus.  The way He loves us is incomprehensible.
"If God's love is an ocean our minds can only hold a jarful."-Francis Chan (Crazy Love)

"For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases Him." 

Philippians 2:13

"Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny.." 

C.S. Lewis

"Be still and know that I am God. I will be honored by every nation. I will be exalted in the earth" 

Psalm 46:10