Tuesday, May 26, 2015

The only thing I know.

For the longest time growing up I always thought I'd come to a place one day when I've reached the point of having it "all figured out." I always imagined this picture perfect life where I knew everything there was to know, I was content with every single detail of my life and that life would just go on happily ever after. I'm not sure when reality set in, but it definitely wasn't until well into my college years when The Lord lovingly shook me and asked me, "Ty, when did I say you had to be perfect? That your life had to be perfect? When did I say that my love is based on performance and that it's not unconditional?" And that's when it hit me. I had this picture of this worry free, problem free, easy life that I had never fit God into.
So I've come to the conclusion:
My life is messy. I'm a total mess all the time, but God LOVES it. All God asks for is our messy hearts because He makes our messes beautiful. He makes our worries, problems, imperfections and shortcomings wonderful for HIS life He has for usIt doesn't make any sense and that's the beauty of it!
I love that God does the work in orchestrating the things in our lives. I mean think about it, the best things that have ever happened to you, did you really do them? No, of course not! God put a desire on your heart and divinely orchestrated it for you to walk into. It doesn't mean that we don't have to work for these things, but He's the reason they work and that they're even possible. Our God is a God of detail. I'm convinced that God cares about absolutely every detail of my life. From what time I drink coffee, to the route I take to work, every conversation I have and my last thought before I go to sleep. He cares about the smallest worries in my heart and always affirms my doubts. Did you notice a pattern in this post? Mess. My worries, my mess. He wants and loves it all. He makes my paths straight. Thank you, Jesus!
 We're human. We struggle. We doubt. We stumble. We all need a savior. Let's rest in the fact that God loves us all the same on the mountain tops and in the deepest valleys. We can't be perfect, but we can abide in Him and trust that His plans are best for us. We are perfectly imperfect.
The only thing I know is that I don't know anything.. and that's okay with me.

"…Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

Check out Psalm 139, too! :)