We all have our own unique talents and passions. Even if we don't know them yet.
Recently, I went to my old high school to play tennis with some friends. I haven't been back there since I graduated 3 years ago. When I think back to who I was in high school and who I am now, I can barely recognize who that girl was. I thought I knew everything there was to know and who I was. I will say that I never knew who I was in high school. I realized I just pretended in order to get by. I never respected myself or thought I was talented at anything. I had a miserable high school existence because I made it that way. I didn't appreciate the moments that were given to me. Instead, I was dreaming of a life I thought I could never get to. I can't even tell you what my dreams were at the time because I didn't even know who I was. My dreams in high school are 100% different from what they are now. You know why? Because God has forced me to take the time to figure out who I truly am.
I'm in the season of waiting right now.
This season has been extremely bitter sweet. It has been a lot of loneliness, tears, anger, fear and made me question everything I've ever believed in. Somehow, someway, in the midst of all the brokenness Jesus has transformed me into who I know He wants me to be. I wouldn't take back a moment of all the pain and heartache for a second. There's only one worse feeling than being broken into a million pieces and that is not knowing who you are. I used to stare at my reflection in the mirror and ask myself "Who are you, Tyler Scott?" I still don't have all the answers, but I have the One who holds it all. This season went from darkness to pure joy. God literally has stripped me down to nothing and rebuilt me in His image. I used to think having a lot of friends and having to know everything was the way to live, but I have lost countless friends and God has put me in my place with having to know all the answers. There is nothing good about arrogance.
I still don't have a clue what my purpose is here on earth, but I have no doubt that The Lord is going to give me more than I ever dreamed of. What's my dream you may ask? To live a happy life with Jesus being His hands and feet. It doesn't matter where I am or who's with me, as long as I have my King I'm complete.
What is God going to do with a shy, awkward and fearful person? Stay tuned!
He > me.
Make me more like You and less like me.
"But I am trusting You, o Lord, saying 'You are my God!' My future is in Your hands. Rescue me from those who hunt me down relentlessly. Let Your favor shine on Your servant. In Your unfailing love, rescue me." Psalm 31:14-16
I feel like we were the same people in HS. So crazy. This is so awesome Tyler, you have a gift!!
ReplyDeleteThat's awesome! It's amazing how much you can change just since graduating isn't it? Seeing how much you thought you knew and comparing to what you know now! Just imagine how much more we have to learn!
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